It might be overeating, pornography, screens, drugs, or something else. The specific addiction doesn’t matter. The problem is that you’re not progressing as you expected. You’re either still relapsing, still suffering too much emotionally, or both. Or, it could be that if you’ve been abstinent for some time, it feels unstable, as if you might lose your “sobriety” at any moment.
You’re not sure what else you can do. You’ve been dedicated as best you can to your recovery. You’ve spent quite a lot of time working on yourself.
After all the work you’ve done to recover, the same triggers, anxieties, and stresses keep returning. Friends or family continue to upset you more than they should. Colleagues make you irritable more often than is reasonable.
On top of that, despite all your effort in recovery, you’re still dealing with the same guilt, shame, and harsh inner-critic. Perhaps some of these things have improved, but not as much as you’d like. Some of these things may have even gotten worse! You long for deeper healing.
You’ve spent time in prayer, meditation, or studying self-help books. Or maybe you’ve attended support groups, worked with counselors, or committed to a particular recovery program. It’s not that these things are bad or don’t work. They are a necessary part of recovery for many people. The thing is you just haven’t found as much healing as you’d hoped for. You want your recovery to go deeper.